i am contemplating making a somewhat unwise or difficult or adult decision. my little youngin cuzzin, ky-losh, we call him, is presenting his university research the same day as my seismic exam. i haven't studied. at all. there hasn't been enough hours in the day, let alone long moments when i haven't been completely thwacked out from sleep-deprivation to study. i'm thinking of blowing off the exam to fly to san diego for the weekend to check out his research project and just him, in general. i did pay money to register for the exam... but at this stage in the game, it would be... useless. between now and then, between derby obligations and field work and other shit.... like, why do i care when i'm leaving the field for grad school... and why do i keep wasting money on the effing thing?

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HOW FUCKEN PROUD OF MY COUSIN AM I??

I'm supposed present or make a poster for my research on ovarian cancer cells. I'm studying a protein within the cell lines that may be connected to metastasis and a mechanism that contributes to tumour formation.